A small correction makes a BIG difference in the painting, "Uphill the Hero". In the upper right I have leaned the vertical, arm-like form, more to the left. Much Better!!! More Profound! Amazing what a relatively minor alteration can do to the overall feel, the engagement, of a visual image.
There is an article in today's New York Times about the work of Jean-Michel Basquiat (quoted below). I worry about my propensity to make complex compositions. In this blog I have often written about my compositional worries. I am struggling to be free of the complex. I want to engage viewers quickly, easily; Basquiat models this well, Basquiat’s compositions are inherently simple; he was a master of compositional simplicity, which allowed complexity in everything else. Basquiat did not always have a complex message, but he always produced simple compositions. Yesterday I moved in that direction. Both of my recent paintings became simpler in composition. At last, I am giving in, I am learning to communicate more deeply by relying on simplicity of composition.
CRITIC’S NOTEBOOK, New York Times, April 29, 2022
"Uphill the Hero" took a good step. "The Beginnings of Caution" got a second try to reproduce it well (which ain't perfect either).
The painting,"The Beginnings of Caution", is better. It is witness to my awaking, it is in the midst of invention of a strategy that will allow me to be more me. All I really want to do is be kind to myself; be real, authentic, don't shy from truths so bold as to be frightening. Call this me becoming “woke." In truth, it ain't easy being oneself. Being oneself is being different from everyone else; it is being different than everything that has come before. Getting woke is difficult because the more you know the more truth and lies you have witnessed. My job is to weed out the lies I have been told, then visually invent the world with truths only, the ones I know are true to the core that is only me.
Childlike is becoming by going. Coming home is an adult behavior. I am act like a child but speak like an adult. My new painting, "The Beginnings of Caution", is fantasy, truthfulness, worry, concern, and quandary. Can I do this kind of thing and make sense of myself?
I know I can do this. I can find a way to bring deeper meaning into my work. I no longer wish to make purely non-representational designs. I am about an internal dialogue with myself. I want this dialogue to be present during my creation of each work of Art.
in·ter·nal·i·za·tion | inˌtərnələˈzāSH(ə)n, inˌtərnəˌlīˈzāSH(ə)n
Psychology: the process of making attitudes or behavior part of one's nature by learning or unconscious assimilation.
• the acquisition of knowledge of the rules of a language.
I have revisited myself. I have reminded myself. The reason I paint is to tell stories, stories of myself. I love telling stories filled with my perceptions, my feeling, my emotions, my intellectual questions, my intellectual answers. With this painting I have come home, a home respecting my most basic love. This is the reason I make Art. I make Art to tell about my here and Now and those stories that give me wonder and my love for living.
Not selecting a title from literature has released me. No longer must I where to consistency in a title; a painting's title will change as the painting changes. My most recent painting, (2022 No.4), is now "Uphill the Hero". This painting will change further, becoming more about going uphill.
Transitions are alive and well, in my Art as it imitates my life. Welcome to my problems. Watch from afar. Enjoy this mystery unravel as it becomes itself intended.
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