My concerns simply do not matter. This is the path I am following. I do not know this path. Joseph Campbell wrote, “If you can see your path laid out in front of you step by step, you know it's not your path. Your own path you make with every step you take. That's why it's your path.” I believe it. Apparently so did Charles Schultz. Understanding within the moment of creation is not as important as understanding by journeying.
Yesterday's drawing is exceptional. It surprised me during its making; it surprises me now. I understand more by looking at it. This is quantifiable by measuring the amount of questions that have been generated. I feel there are more questions to answer now than there were before I made this drawing. Expansion of consciousness is a result of giving possible answers which procreate more questions. I do not know what I do not know. I do know the number of questions sitting there in front of me are expanding. All require inquiry, all beckon me. Are ideas questions? Yes! My art is me making possible answers.
Until recently, finessing an image came hard. Now the bit by bit alterations, which lead to nuanced intellectual and emotional subtlety, feel right and good. You can see it happening in the images I post today. Neither came quick. Both came with slow contemplation. It is a mode of behavior which once made me uncomfortable. At one point in my life I was a research scientist. I left that profession because it required a great deal of slow, contemplative behavior. I wanted physical, energetic use of mind and limb. Making Art was my solution. Here I am making Art with behavior similar to my best days as scientist.
BTW: If you are interested my contribution to the understanding of carbon dioxide's role in global warming, see this scientific paper:
Dissociation constants for carbonic acid determined from field measurements
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