There is fascination in the shape and form of the dust balls, and the weird slough-offs from plants and animals, that inhabit the edges and corners of a room. But that's not what this is all about. These are the structures and landscapes found in the edges and corners of my mind, my history, my weird dreams. Do all of us have these? I suppose, I assume. My father used to say (not original to him), "Don't assume or you will make an ass out of u and me." In my case, these are opening truth and circumstances very real to me.
Drawings from 09/29/2015, all are pencil on paper, 16X20 inches
Drawings from 09/27/2015, all are pencil on paper, 20X16 inches
A whirlwind of drawings are spilling from me. They are me seeking a moral solution to my activity as artist. Yesterday's drawings were closer to truth than the day before, and much closer than those two days before, and.... You get the idea. Engineers would say I am in the Problem Solving Loop, but that would be inaccurate. Engineers decide upon a solution. That will never happen to me.
Drawings from 09/27/2015, pencil on paper, 20X16 inches
This is truly the age of research, seek and find, truth and misdirection, wonder, lost and found, it is and it isn't, it was and now is, and the mystery surrounding authentication. There is no direct line or path. The path is created by plunging into the light and the dark and their competition to be recognized are genuine. The problem to solve is one of verification. Truth is seldom. Truth is not always easy to recognize.
Hi! I have been away a few days because I had a minor medical problem that needed attention. It has been dealt with, and here I am again!
Yesterday was am important day. I am always amazed that insight is so great upon return after a few days away. It must be a result of stored energy, or it could be that the mind is working, processing, all the time. I think it is both energy and time to process. If I am right, then moving too quickly, exerting too much energy, is detrimental to self-discovery.
I am going to leave you with images, but little discussion. I need to get out there, into the studio again.
Drawings from 09/25/2015, all pencil on paper, 16X20 inches
Drawings from 09/20/2015, all pencil on paper, 16X20 inches
A continuity to the research is forming. Even I cannot tell you more than this. It is time to sit back and watch the exploration. Questions will asked, answers will be given. Assessment will occur over time.
Yesterday's drawing is another look at the possibilities of the painting, Beloved. This drawing, as some of my drawing do, demanded time and a lot of marks. It took a while. But the today's post title is more about my acceptance that my current deciphering of "what's it all about" is not going quickly, and cannot go quickly.
All I can do is watch and learn. Research, explore, be here and now, i.e. all the phrases indicating mindfulness apply.
Drawings from 09/17/2015, all pencil on paper, 16X20 inches
There are no good words to perfectly describe the methodology of discovery that has overtaken me, so "gronk" it is! This painting is beginning to work for me, as is the drawing.
Drawings from 9/13/2015, both pencil on paper, 20X16 inches
It is true. I have discovered that the playful wanderlust of the line, the invention of form, and the feel of atmosphere, appeal to my aesthetic sensibilities. Yesterday's drawings exhibit nascent possibilities. I am excited by the potential, the range of choices, of this action plan.
The problem I now have is my desire to explore has exploded. I do not want to take the time to manufacture stretched canvases. So today, taking a cue from my mentor, Philip Guston, I will manufacture a painting wall designed to tack up canvas straight off the roll. My current painting wall is designed to hang stretched canvases. I have never worked this way before. But, if the plan works, I will be able to place canvas on the wall and begin to paint within seconds. New problems will arise, e.g. how do I store the very pliable, newly painted, canvases, as they come off the wall? I'm going to stop now, as pre-planning never solves a real problem in the best possible manner.
Clarity is not easy to find, but it can be found through work. This I believe. Yesterday's work was better than the day's before. It made more intuitive sense. The operator is finding self-knowledge.
Drawings from 9/12/2015, all are pencil on paper, 16X20 inches
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