My personal revolution is paying off. The painting, "Catapult", is self-respect. I feel deeply, yet, in the past, I have strayed from making Art based as much upon my personal history as upon the History of Art. This revolution is about me saying, “Enough with deception!” No longer will I restfully make Art clearly influenced by Picasso, Miró, Moore, Sutherland, Kandinsky, or Matisse.
I love creating three-dimensional forms. I love creating light filled images. I want to do this trickery on a two-dimensional surface. I do not want to be a sculptor. What I want is clear. My revolution is my acceptance of my personal preferences. This painting is a revolutionary step simply because it makes sense to me. Consequently, I am making sense of myself.
I have been busy reevaluating, examining myself, examining my Art. I am questioning by drawing, by making many drawings, each drawing a reaction to the drawing previous to itself. Today I show you about half of the drawings I made over the last few days. I am breaking my promise to show you everything I make. I would overwhelm if I did show you all my recent drawings. I show only my most important drawings made during the last few days.
This drawing is cropped from its original dimensions. The crop makes the bottom left sphere-like form more potent. Am I making sense? My current state of mind, full of doubt and wondering, is me nervous.
I am poking myself with images not seen before. This is me in search of me.
Hide and seek, real or not, never easy to find; yet, here I come.
Selfish it is, but it is what I do. I am a mystery to unravel. I am endlessly fascinated by unknowns. I have many unknowns. Once a Scientist, for many years I have been an Artist. I do the same thing in both professions. I seek to find. These two drawings are as different as are my mysteries. I will continue to seek.
I am going to find iT! I am within a willful search through research. That means, two steps forward, one backward, two forward, et cetera. Today, upon looking at these drawings, I did one forward, one backward. And so It goes...
So what-ta-ya think? Blah, blah, blah... I am in the midst of research and development. Anything I say right now will be similar in tone to the pundits on ESPN or CNBC, pretending to be in the know; today they predict the outcome of Super Bowl 2022 and next week's stock market trends. Well, I am here. I don't know where I am going. I do know I am embarked upon a reasonable and intelligent journey.
These two drawing sparkle with ideas. They sit with impact and truth. Enjoy! (blah, blah, blah...)
When does seeing become believing? For me, not soon, perhaps never, perhaps now. I have contempt for my own work. When concluded it never fully satisfies. I doubt success, so I do more. In doing I appreciate my own ability to see and feel my way to sense and sensibility. In the conclusion I find no happiness. I like these drawings, I doubt these drawings. Therefore I return to make more.
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