Category: Emotions

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5/13/2022

Drawing 05·11·2022 No.1, pencil on paper, 16x20 inches

Drawing 05·11·2022 No.2, pencil on paper, 16x20 inches

Drawing 05·11·2022 No.3, pencil on paper, 16x20 inches

Here are three compositions playfully looking for interest and surprise. These drawings are me searching, finding; they are me uncovering, divulging, broadcasting, publishing, and confessing.

Storytelling by Internalization

4/23/2022

Drawing 04·22·2022, pencil on paper, 20x16 inches

I know I can do this. I can find a way to bring deeper meaning into my work. I no longer wish to make purely non-representational designs. I am about an internal dialogue with myself. I want this dialogue to be present during my creation of each work of Art.

in·ter·nal·i·za·tion | inˌtərnələˈzāSH(ə)n, inˌtərnəˌlīˈzāSH(ə)n
noun
Psychology: the process of making attitudes or behavior part of one's nature by learning or unconscious assimilation.
• the acquisition of knowledge of the rules of a language.

I Love to Tell Stories

4/22/2022

"Uphill the Hero" (2022 No.4, state 6), oil on canvas, 60x56⅝ inches

I have revisited myself. I have reminded myself. The reason I paint is to tell stories, stories of myself. I love telling stories filled with my perceptions, my feeling, my emotions, my intellectual questions, my intellectual answers. With this painting I have come home, a home respecting my most basic love. This is the reason I make Art. I make Art to tell about my here and Now and those stories that give me wonder and my love for living.

The Power of the Dog

3/15/2022

Drawing 03·11·2022, pencil on paper, 16x20 inches

If you wish to criticize me, please do! Just call me dogged, relentless, a pain in the ass to those who wish simple and easy. Here I am, still at it, imperfect. This drawing is exceptional. Imperfectly a step toward wrapping together emotional balance and imbalance.

More and More Solid

1/31/2022

"Tonstant Weader Fwowed Up" (2021 No.10, state 13), oil on canvas, 56x62¼ inches, {"And it is that word 'hummy', my darlings, that marks the first place in 'The House at Pooh Corner' at which Tonstant Weader fwowed up." - Dorothy Parker (1893-1967), in "The New Yorker", 20 October 1928, reviewed by Dorothy Parker as "Constant Reader"}

Recently I have been hanging in there, pushing two paintings toward solid finishes. This enormity, my great desire to complete, may surprise you; it surprises me. There is great meaning in these paintings. I am obsessed. I cannot let them go the way a man cannot let go of a woman he loves. I find beauty in these; not simply the beauty as defined by the dictionary: “a combination of qualities, such as shape, color, or form, that pleases the aesthetic senses, especially the sight.” The beauty I see also reflects my deepest knowing, both emotional and intellectual knowing. The very process of completing these paintings is me exercising trueness to myself.

Get Outta Here!

1/21/2022

Drawing 01·20·2022, pencil on paper, 16x20 inches

myself Sometimes I mull over my reason for the text within my Blog post. What’s it all about? It is all about me mulling over my Art, its direction, its validity, the degree I have made sense in my work. Today is no exception. This is a good drawing. I am establishing a center, in my work, and in myself. Today’s text is me patting on the back, “I did alright,” and “I am going the right direction.” Bravo for me! Now, get outta here and go make more Art!

Take a look at a master, Franz Marc, controlling the viewer's engagement: In the painting "Deer in the Forest," Marc locks the viewer's gaze within this painting, through form and value. After the lock, Marc carries the viewer through a maze of wonder, via color, form, value, and movement.

Franz Marc, "Deer in the Forest", 101x105cm, 1913

A Little Everyday & Wanting to Cry

12/4/2021

Drawing 12·03·2021, pencil on paper, 20x16 inches

"Tonstant Weader Fwowed Up" (2021 No.10, state 8), oil on canvas, 56x62¼ inches, {"And it is that word 'hummy', my darlings, that marks the first place in 'The House at Pooh Corner' at which Tonstant Weader fwowed up." - Dorothy Parker (1893-1967), in "The New Yorker", 20 October 1928, reviewed by Dorothy Parker as "Constant Reader"}

I want to cry over the beauty of my paintings and drawings. I am not there yet. It is my goal. I want myself, and my viewers, to feel so very deeply the sincerity, and the nuanced beauty, of each of my art works, so much so that they are filled with emotion, emotion that spills so hard that they break down and cry. I am taking baby steps in that direction. I am not there yet.

Beat Beat

10/29/2021

Drawing 10·28·2021, pencil on paper, 16x20 inches

I am happy with this drawing. This drawing looks and feels dramatic, emotional. This is a step forward for me. The beat goes on.

Tussle, Turmoil, Wrangle & Grapple

9/20/2021

"Find a Man" (2021 No.8, state 8), oil on canvas, 56x59½ inches, {"When we see a natural style, we are astonished and delighted; for we expected to find an author, and we find a man." -Blaise Pascal (1623-1662), "Pensées", 29 (1670)}

Struggling is not new to me. In fact, it is preferred. If I am not struggling I am not reviewing the edges of my consciousness, edges of my intellect, edges of my emotions. This painting, "Find a Man", is testing all of the above. This is me finding my roots, and the extensiveness of my personal landscape.

Am I there yet? No! That is an accepted impossible. "Find a Man" is on my journey; a journey to better understanding. The superlative, best, will never be obtained. As long as I work I will always become better, but I will never become best.

Alive & Well & Work

9/19/2021

"Find a Man" (2021 No.8, state 7), oil on canvas, 56x59½ inches, {"When we see a natural style, we are astonished and delighted; for we expected to find an author, and we find a man." -Blaise Pascal (1623-1662), "Pensées", 29 (1670)}

Not there yet... more work to be done on "Find a Man". This is good work. This work elevates me. I imagine I must look like a college football player during a game; alert, on guard, ready to make instantaneous decisions... that is how I feel when I am making art.

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