It is a mystery to me the vast degree of difference in sight and understanding, one person to the next. George Bernard Shaw told a story in his autobiography, writing that his eye doctor told him that he sees with normal vision; Shaw asked the doctor, "So I see like everyone else?" The doctor replied, "No, less than 10% of people have normal vision." I feel the same about my work. I believe I see with normal vision. My works visually communicates deep understanding, both intellectual and emotional. Yet I find people who celebrate the clarity of my vision far fewer than those who react to it in any substantial manner; they simply walk by. This is my quandary. I will continue my journey. I continue to hope my work will become more universal in its communication, its social intercourse, thus allowing me to share communion with others.
Always! I am always searching for relevance — myself for myself and myself for my viewers. Today I will take more steps to integrate with relevant social media. For now, view these drawings. They are becoming more tightly composed as they become more complicated in their number and kinds of forms. I am watching carefully, as I am weary of complication. I want to be direct and honest. I want my work to have initial impact as well as a quality that demands sustained involvement.
These are days of more darkness than light. These are days filled with friends and family. These are days of enjoyment and celebration. These are days when I get confused. I lose some self identity. Art saves me. Art grounds me. Art pulls me back to center. Art allows me to be comfortable with celebration. Art allows me to accept less light than darkness. Art allows continued belief in my integrity. Today I show two drawings from yesterday. The first is yesterday's second drawing, which I think is a self-portrait. The second may be a self-portrait as well. Dedicated readers know I have spent less time in the studio than usual. These drawings are me looking for myself.
One of the most important activities of an artist is admitting defeat. Another activity is trying and failing. Failing is not always about lack of ability, or lack of understanding. It is most often about trying to go places that are not familiar and that will never be familiar. Advice often given to young writers is, "Write what you know!" This is good advice for visual artists as well. Admitting defeat is more about admitting "a lack of emotional connection," than admitting "ignorance." Does that make sense? Let me be more clear. I am not ignorant of how bananas are made, but they do not instigate any important emotions in me. A powerful work of art can be made with bananas playing a central role, but I haven't done it. I admit defeat. Georgio de Chirico used them well in his painting, "The Uncertainty of the Poet" (see below).
To finish, the drawing I made yesterday exhibits information I understand. I have no bananas today!
Drawings 05/09/2015, nos. 1, 2, 3, pencil on paper, 16X20 inches
I post these reproductions in an effort to bring you up to date on my activity. These drawings are from 5/9/2015, thus are posted 6 days after creation. They are important in their obvious struggle for relevant image making.
Later today I will post the drawings from yesterday. Only then will this blog contain a complete set of images reflecting my actual studio production.
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