This move is a real one. Symbolism is upon me. Is this, definable, decidable, decipherable symbolism? To my inner self, yes! This makes sense to me. This is not verbal sense. This is internal sense. Things are right in this, my newest painting, "Crevice."
Thus it begins. I have accepted an idea true to me. This is about symbolic representation as important to energizing my deepest self. I accept it, my images may mystify some viewers, but no matter how perplexing, puzzling, convoluted, mystifying, and unaccountable it may look to some, this is core me. I must do it. The new painting, "Crevice", is such consequential image.
The painting "Castle" is ready for exhibition. I stretched it on a wood frame, some surfaces and edges required repainting. Here it is!
My latest drawing took two studio visits to resolve. This multiple day revisiting is becoming common; it does benefit my drawings. As my work becomes more sophisticated, more nuanced, putting away, returning for a new look, is advantageous. This multiple-day-art-making may become my norm. Multiple states has always worked for my paintings; I am accepting it is also good for my drawings.
Yep! Closer! I am not satisfied. Today’s image of “Arena” represents a step in my journey, a depiction that works better than its last. Better means declarative movement toward complete, flawless correct. Better is movement toward an impossible goal.
I will never be done. I like the painting, "Arena", but I am disquieted by it as well. This unease drives my anxiousness. I cannot get all my ideas into one painting, nor can I ever say, "This completely makes sense to me!" Everything I do is a test. After each test I know better; that does not mean I am closer to a completely true answer. Every answer in incomplete. I will continue on my investigative journey, a quest without an end.
I made a simple promise to myself. Turns out the simplest of promises are difficult to keep. The painting and the drawing I worked on yesterday, these grab my promise, make it real; that is, these works center their compositions, make viewers immediately aware of their intensions.
Taking risks does not mean more than step taking. I want to be satiated; that will never happen. Art-Making is looking. With every step I take I get closer to making sense to myself.
The subject of the painting "Arena" is usual. It begs for a next step. I am happy with the next step being necessary. The next step will be here and/or the painting that follows this one.
I am nowhere near satisfied with this new painting, "Arena" (its name may change as it slowly comes into its own).
Today's work is better than yesterday's poor answer. There is life here. Life is full of questions, I make art because I try to provide answers. Each work of Art is one possible answer. Nothing more.
Finding oneself does take revisiting instincts, personal instincts discovered when young. It is easy to see self-truth when young. Youth has the distinct advantage of lacking the enormous distractions of educational and experiential learning. For me, the painting, and the drawings, I show today are satellite revisits. They exhibit me in orbit around myself. I am hoping this is me experiencing a problem solving loop, spiraling, falling out of orbit, toward true, trustful answers.
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