By separation I mean I am allowing myself to dissolve my attachment to all things that came before. I am here, I am now, I am committed to enjoy playing in this space and time. Thus comes this newest painting, "Ghost Town". I just realized, the title of this painting makes sense given my launch away from my past. I am trying to leave my ghosts behind. I am trying to allow myself to make stuff now based upon now.
Yesterday began with a glance at the drawing from 2/18/2021. It is Good! This I followed with a revisited to the drawing from 2/13/2021, which I restated, as seen here. Finally, I made a drawing from scratch, the drawing dated 2·19·2021.
All went well. It was a day making sure I feel good about my current understanding. I came away feeling very good. I believe my recent steps have been in the right direction!
I am on the go. These drawing are uniquely me. Negative space has become more important, more emotional. Positive space, positive forms, are potently obvious in their intent. There is no hiding behind a plethora of details. These are in your face drawings. No lie, no disguise, no pretense. They are naked and real. I am releasing myself into my work. No longer do I feel lost in my own debatable masquerade.
"Amidst a Falling World" is complete. There are multiple emotions involved in completion. It is death and life and learning and despair (over not knowing enough); it is an end and a beginning. It is informative, but sadly never as wonderful as I wish. Immediately upon completion my desire to begin anew is great. Everything fails a little, as well as succeeds a little. It is within the perception of failure that the next work begins.
I returned to the first drawing made on 7/16/2020. I altered it. My present process encapsulates sitting, staring, contemplating my past work. I mindfully revisit. I ask. I question. I wonder upon betterment. Yesterday's results from this revisit/rethink process are these drawings, shown today. The one at the top of this page, yesterday's original one, looks back while moving forward (it resembles other recent drawings). The lower drawing is an enhancement of the drawing I first made more than a week ago. I am learning from myself. I am critically examining my drawings, also looking back at work done early in my career; I am looking for successes and failures. This is research. (FYI: If you are interested in my examination of my past work, go to CATALOGUE RAISONNÉ.
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