I will be out of the studio until Tuesday 08/07/2012. In the meantime, catch up by reading my older posts. Most fascinating is the development of the painting "Sight & Sound", which will be delivered to Long River Studios today. I urge you to visit Long River Studios to see this painting in its flesh, along with three of my drawings. "Sight & Sound" is 60 X 52 inches, so there are two major reasons its reproduction here pales compared to its reality: scale and color reproduction.
I will post again on Wednesday August 8th with reproductions of my work from 08/07/2012. See you then.
Yesterday I did not get much time in the studio. Just enough time to get one drawing done. Yes, lightning and heavy winds brought down trees and the power went off and on, but that was last evening. The lightning that struck me during the day was activities that took me away from the studio. I needed to do them, so I did not get to finish the painting "Sight & Sound". That painting must be completed today so it can be delivered to Long River Studios tomorrow. On Friday I leave for my summer trip.
Today's a cramped day. There is much to do, including preparation for my leaving on a trip this Friday, July 20. Today I will finish the painting "Sight and Sound". Then I will frame drawings, and prepare the painting for hanging in the Long River Studios "Sight & Sound" exhibition. My work will be on the walls of Long River Studios by the end of the Thursday, July 19. Please visit.
The painting "Sight & Sound" will probably reach conclusion today. That does not mean I am done with it. Yesterday's drawing was a good one. It also explores the idea of Sight & Sound. It too will be exhibited in the Long River Studios exhibit opening July 27.
I am trying to clarify, but most often I feel I am working out of confusion while worrying I am in a state of delusion. Perhaps I am in the midst of simultaneity of all three: delusion, confusion, and clarity.
Yesterday's drawing felt particularly bizarre to me, but I knew it was a research drawing. This strange drawing is me researching the manner of making the nose and the lips of the woman in the painting "Sight & Sound". "Sight & Sound" went well yesterday. It is closer to completion. Next week this painting will be delivered to Long River Studios of Lyme, New Hampshire for their "Sight & Sound" exhibition, opening July 27. They asked me to design the poster for this exhibit using one of my drawings (see below).
Sometimes I become obsessed with one minor element in a painting. I do not stop developing the overall painting, but I return, again and again, to the nagging, single disturbance. Is it in my imagination, distorted by mal-perceived curiosity? This time it is the nose of the woman in the painting "Sight & Sound". Otherwise, I feel yesterday went well. I want to get back to it as soon as possible. This painting is moving quickly toward conclusion. More tomorrow...
I am working on achieving a dream. The dream is simple, and its about simplicity. Today I lament the distractions of life which cause me to be taken away from that which animates my love of being in the moment. I enjoy so much the here and now of making art. As I write this I must be careful to explain that enjoyment is not joy. Making art is intense, and filled with the emotional ups and downs that fill up life as we know it. Joy is not within me as I make art, but as I make art the feeling of purposeful existence penetrates my being. This intensity of actuality is what I am calling enjoyment. I do not find enjoyment in the duties of life, which are dedicated to keeping order within one's life, from financially making ends meet, to eating well, to keeping the house clean.
Yesterday I worked on the painting "Sight & Sound", and I made a drawing which shows great finesse. I am anxious to get back into "Sight & Sound" today. Yes, unfortunately, I do have other things I must do (outside of making art).
I did not like yesterday, or the day before. The most disrupting parts of my life are the times demanded by the practical things of life—they steal away energy and time. Monday (07/09/2012) required more of my time than the usual Money Monday, and yesterday (Tuesday) was all about an automobile that needed care. Jeez Louise. So all I can show for the last two days is one minor drawing, which was executed way back on Monday afternoon.
The question in today's title refers to my doubting my acquisition of knowledge. It comes down to this: I feel that I am expressing myself better and better, and by working I am finding a pathway to more satisfying, more authentic expression. Of course I doubt everything I feel. I cannot know for sure, but I cannot ask for more than my feeling that I am, here and now, identifying myself through my work. It is what it is.
Yesterday the painting "Sight & Sound" took satisfying steps, and the two drawings felt true.
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