These two drawings are proof that getting right ain't easy. I had to go in, slice these two apart, alter by erasing and marking. They are better. I proved to myself going dark is not better than being careful with touch, delicacy and sensitivity. Obviously, I can go both ways. Is one more successful than the other? Not sure, but now I know this: I enjoyed making the more sensitive drawing more than the one pounded to submission by marks on top of marks on top of marks.
Complex versus simple; expression is in the eye of the beholder. I must remember this: The artist is not required to spell out every nuance of every feeling. The artist is required to be simple, pure, accepting of the viewer's profound understanding of life, living, and feeling. In other words, the artist is not required to spell out every nuance of every feeling. No more descriptive quality is necessary If the artist feels, then produces an image that is that feeling. The viewer, through his or her feeling, will complete that which must be felt.
This drawing is impossible to reproduce with its subtle, high contrast, pencil marks, from gray to black. I go with this reproduction because it is as good as I can get. In reproducing my work, my goal is always to illuminate their structures and emotions. Have I have accomplished reproducing this drawing's complexity? I have reproduced its intent. My art must be seen in person, on a well lit wall, to be fully appreciated. I apologize for my failures. Obviously, in reproducing my art, I work hard to show it in true appearance.
Definitely not sure of this one. It fails to convince me of its efficacy and its intentions. Perhaps being subtle is not enough for me. I need a hammer to hit. I require a blast of feeling. I am desperate to understand without doubt. Perhaps others will see without my confusion. Stuff like this makes me question my own integrity and my insight. Do I know what I know? Do I know what I feel? Am I alone because I am confused?
I have a new camera, a Nikon Z6 Mirrorless SLR. I used this camera to photograph my work reproduce in my last three blog posts. For today's image I changed exposure; I opened the lens aperture by +0.3 stop. The result is being able to see the subtleness of this drawing. This photo is a much better reproduction than achieved using my previous camera (Nikon D3300, a mirrored SLR).
As a work of art, yesterday's drawing is one more a step toward self-realization. I do feel I am on the cusp of great work.
Yesterday's drawing, in the making, began with a simple hook to bring me in. After I was in I enriched it! This makes sense to me, as the hook gets the viewer's attention, then the sensual subtleties allow one to dwell, like a complex taste on one's palate.
Over and over, look after look, I have been seeing a problem in my drawing from July 18 (Blog post of July 19). I fixed it. What bothered me was the shadow cast by the form in its upper left. It amazes me how a subtle alteration creates an enormous change in the impact of the image. It makes more sense, and rests easier, true and real. That is important, since without realism in abstraction the image looks awkward and unseemly. Below is current state of the July 18 drawing.
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