Before becoming an artist I was a scientist. Last night reminded me much of a night I remember during my undergraduate education. It was the night before a final exam in Physics. Back then I could not stop the formulas and ideas about everything from mechanics to electricity and magnetism from spilling into my head. I tossed and turned and saw images and formulas flash in and out. It was not a night of rest. More like a night of an onslaught. I could not escape then, and I could not escape last night. There was no peace to be found. Last night I could not stop the forms I am finding in my art from being in my head. They were omni-present, visual and dream-like. These forms composed themselves into pictures. They were brittlely real. Shattering in my mind, then moving onto a new composition, one after another. Wild, uncontrollable, disconcerting. Yet, I feel, as I did back then before the Physics exam, that this is a clue to the soundness of my knowledge. True knowledge is imbedded within me. The art I am making has authenticity. It rings true, as my understanding of Physics rang true. There is a call here. I have arrived at something truly important to me.
Drawings from 1/5/2016, pencil on paper, 16X20 inches
It is all coming back to me, though it feels, and looks, different than I remember. Such is being away. Such is coming back. Outflow was disrupted. Going back into the present is strange but true. Such is the rhythm of living a life where the work is being true to oneself. What are these images shown today? No comment from me. I am awakening as quickly as I can. They do look produced by a man who is a bit groggy, produced by one who has recently been involved in the process of dreaming.
More will be revealed today! The process, the problem solving, continues...
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