Symbolic, noteworthy, looks like something I have seen before; this is what I am doing. I am going there, doing it, referring to memory past and present, stuff that visually reminds me. These two drawings are examples of my quest for known and knowing.
Symbolism and I go way back, back to my first impulses. I remember being in college, where I was studying Chemistry, but flirting with making Art; I made a painting with people marching up a mountain, marching to the top where a national flag was blowing in the wind. The idea of marching uphill, toward a national symbol, had much to do with the ideas put forward in John Lennon's song, Imagine: "Imagine there's no countries, It isn't hard to do, Nothing to kill or die for, And no religion, too." A couple years later I was an Apprenticed Artist in New York City, four years later I moved to study with Philip Guston at Boston University.
I believe I am returning to one of my primary impulses, symbolism. These two drawings are a step in that direction, they are symbolic moments.
I've been working within a shroud of worry, fragility, insecurity, investigation, quandary, and transition. These three drawings exhibit inquiry, many questions, some answers. Am I happy with these? There is joy and peace in transition, I'm going somewhere! There is more transition here than simple success.
ANNOUNCEMENT: The painting, "Castle" (2022 No.3), will be exhibited in the 2022 Guild Summer Salon, June 25 to August 18. See below for more information👇
2022 Guild Summer Salon
JUNE 25 - AUGUST 18, 2022
Silvermine Arts Center
1037 Silvermine Road
New Canaan, CT 06840
Gallery and Store Hours
Summer Salon’ features new work by over 100 members of the Silvermine Guild of Artists working in a broad range of styles and the artists explorations within their medium. This annual summer exhibition celebrates our extraordinarily accomplished painters, sculptors, printmakers, mixed media and fiber artists.
I believe I must give into my authentic impulses. As I make, if I recognize a bit of representation, I am animated. I think, "This is real! This is a base looking for a play.” This bit of representation gives me an anchor. It gives me a scene that feels true to touch and life. Looking back at my recent output, I believe my best works contain this token of visual reality. That means something! In the least, I have to explore this grab for bits of representation. In the first drawing shown today, the one from 5/21/2022, I exhibit this most clearly. In fact, if you go back to my blog post of 5/22/2022, in that same drawing you will see the human head more abstractly. State 1 of this drawing did not work as well for me as State 2; yesterday’s change startles me. This drawing feels vastly more true; it is much better because of a minor change toward a more recognizable form.
No delusion; this is my hope. These two drawings are manifest my entire live in searching of the stuff I know to be true, true to me. The drawing at the top resembles a painting I did when studied with Philip Guston; I have come a long way since then. These drawings accept my natural impulse, my nature of seeing. Acknowledgement means a big step because I added my personal record of effort and learning to natural impulse; technical learning allows me to make substantial stuff my younger self could only imagine.
Finding oneself does take revisiting instincts, personal instincts discovered when young. It is easy to see self-truth when young. Youth has the distinct advantage of lacking the enormous distractions of educational and experiential learning. For me, the painting, and the drawings, I show today are satellite revisits. They exhibit me in orbit around myself. I am hoping this is me experiencing a problem solving loop, spiraling, falling out of orbit, toward true, trustful answers.
Here are three compositions playfully looking for interest and surprise. These drawings are me searching, finding; they are me uncovering, divulging, broadcasting, publishing, and confessing.
I feel different. I have changed my mind. You can see this change in today’s drawings. Art-making is the act of changing one's mind. My drawings, my recent paintings, embrace a simple approach; they embrace face-on compositions. These works are realizations. Complexity of who I am cannot be reduced. Deception occurs if complexity be ignored. Simplicity must be sought. Yesterday drawings are practice toward achieving simplicity.
There is no straight line to knowing and undersatnding. These two drawings are examples, as disparate as they are. These drawings are wonderful as individuals, paradoxical as a pair. Yes, the same dude made both of them.
What are these? Wondering is valuable. It is brainstorming at its best. I got nothing else.
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