Suffice to say, "times they are a-changing." Peter Saul helps; he gives me courage for my own direction.
Drawings from 5/26/2015, pencil on paper, 16X20 inches
The painting "Leap" is beginning to make sense to me. So is my drawing. Perhaps I am getting even with myself. Sometimes living feels like a race. I am in a simple run, trying to catch up with my internalization of all experienced, known and seen. I hope I win before the end. Right now I feel I am running as fast as I am able and I can perceive the image of truth in front me. I am not winning, but my margin of being behind is smaller than it once was. This is a good thing!
Reversing my schedule of activities leaves me with less energy to write this blog. Pros: I am showing you the work I completed today. Cons: I have little to say about the work I completed today.
Today's drawing results from a process twisted, bent, curled, and convoluted. It started off simple and bold, then became an examination of minutia. Excellent finger nails. A lot of hair. Breasts are not too shabby. The play of light across the major and minor forms of the face is worthy of consideration. Nice nipples! The right upper arm is truly round and squeezable. Et cetera, et cetera... The consequence is comprehensive. It is, however, blow-by-blow incidentally tangential, albeit informative. This approach I will not emulate.
The painting, Untitled Triptych-08·13·2014, is beginning to increase its energy load. This is, perhaps, the opposite of woe. More succinctly, it is simple mindfulness. It is taking me over, here and now.
It is not what you make, it is where it comes from. A couple days ago I saw the new film "Turner" (about the artist, Joseph Mallord William Turner). It rang so very true. There is a point where writing and talking about one's art is indescribable. I am getting there. This does not mean I will stop this blog, as its reason for existence is about getting my images out there for you to see, but more importantly, for me to reflect upon those same images. Every day my posting here is useful to me. It forces me to see more clearly that which I have done. It categorizes my images externally. This allows me to question if my day's work has internal authenticity. The answer is never as clear as the question.
There's a double title for today. The first part refers to a painting's ability to take over and direct me ― I am Up & Running because Untitled Triptych-08·13·2014 is calling the shots. I am paying attention. I am the conduit.
The second portion of the title refers to my desire to keep you engaged. My blog's viewing numbers went down yesterday. Although still in the several hundreds of readers, I prefer to know that more than a thousand are reading this thing. Ego? No, it is about communication being important. This blog is valuable to me for several reasons, one of which is its ability to measure your interest. Interest is a measure of successful communication. Like all of us, I want to feel relevant and acknowledged. I take readership here as a serious measure of the value of my conversation with you. When I do not write for several days, my readership plummets. That makes sense. But right now I am in the heat of battle. I feel important art is being made. I always question my validity. Engagement with others helps me diminish that fear, just a bit.
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