Over the last week I have made numerous drawings. These are risky drawings, all in search of trueness to myself, the enlightened child born from years of labor, years of thoughtfulness. These drawings are stepping stones on my path, a path not mine to choose. I must follow my path if I am to reach personal satisfaction. My path is fraught with risk. In the past, my intellect, and my emotional needs, have tricked me. I have been tricked because I desire to fit the Artistic molds invented by others, i.e., Art which has found approval from scholars, historians, and critics.
I have been busy reevaluating, examining myself, examining my Art. I am questioning by drawing, by making many drawings, each drawing a reaction to the drawing previous to itself. Today I show you about half of the drawings I made over the last few days. I am breaking my promise to show you everything I make. I would overwhelm if I did show you all my recent drawings. I show only my most important drawings made during the last few days.
I feel good. I am going somewhere true. Will that place be one of total success? No way! I go a direction, but every direction has its imperfections. I do that which I must. Yesterday's work, show here (as always), speaks volumes. The volumes it speaks is not only in form and depth (Art Principle stuff), but it exhibits my work not as an ethic, but as a desire to be felicitously moving along.
My life is changing. I am rejecting assiduous, go-at-it-even-if-I-am-tired, relentless push, push. I am accepting do-it-till-I-am-used-up-for-the-day. "Used-up" means acknowledging “when” there is little joy, and also knowing “when” there is little creative insight left in me to give my work. These drawings, and the painting I showed you yesterday ("Ghost Town"), are products of my acknowledging that "when." I am happier. My work is better.
By separation I mean I am allowing myself to dissolve my attachment to all things that came before. I am here, I am now, I am committed to enjoy playing in this space and time. Thus comes this newest painting, "Ghost Town". I just realized, the title of this painting makes sense given my launch away from my past. I am trying to leave my ghosts behind. I am trying to allow myself to make stuff now based upon now.
I know I do not know as much as I want to know. This does not make me uncomfortable. This painting is about me seeking truth by enjoying the calisthenics of my instincts. I trust. I have fun because my abilities have withstood the test of making many works of art. I am like Usain Bolt at the top of his abilities, or Tom Brady at the top of his.
This drawing is cropped from its original dimensions. The crop makes the bottom left sphere-like form more potent. Am I making sense? My current state of mind, full of doubt and wondering, is me nervous.
I am poking myself with images not seen before. This is me in search of me.
No comment. I am learning as I go.
"To rake" means to scrape up or collect. Enough said! Look at this new painting, think about me collecting shapes, scraping them from my internal self..
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