Fascinating it is, that the struggle of my life is not a struggle for understanding and skill, but for simple and clear. It ain't easy for me to accept simplicity. Simplicity, it seems, is far more difficult to render well than complex and overwhelming. Paring down to essentials is hard work; much harder than letting loose with a spill of ideas. Ideas come easy; sorting out the relevant comes hard.
My Pecha Kucha, developed at the behest of Silvermine Galleries, is available on YouTube: www.youtube.com/watch?v=szzy_syjNkQ. The announcement postcard for this exhibit, and the Pecha Kucha, are below. All relevant information regarding the 70th A-ONE exhibit can be seen on the postcard. This Pecha Kucha explains my creative life, from informative years to the painting, Amidst a Falling World, now on view at the 70th A-ONE Exhibition. This Pecha Kucha is 20 slides with 20 voice overs by me, each slide last 20 seconds, total run time = 6 minutes 40 seconds.
Yesterday's beginning of a drawing is shown below the postcard. This drawing feels like a new beginning. I will work on the same drawing today. I believe a lot of excellent work is about to spill from me. My level of understanding has recently taken a big step toward clarity.
Today I show an incredibly rich drawing. It is a remake of the second drawing from 09/04/2020. I once was a Wunderkind. Today I am a laborer in love and mindfulness. If you doubt my having been a Wunderkind, visit my CATALOGUE RAISONNÉ 1987-91; those were my formative years. There you will see my first personal pictures, those made on my own, after I had left the mentorship of Philip Guston.
Yesterday confirms I have arrived. I am capable. I am able to make work that expresses the momentary me. In my early years I had found this too, but self-doubt, and my need to be more than an artist, had separated me from the quest for pure and selfish self-expression. I wanted to live fully, have children, have a great love, and teach the young. I did that. Now I fully return to my selfish quest to express myself. My recent drawings are marks in my journey. I am now taking one remarkable step at time toward being all I can be as artist and self-expressionist.
There is only one way to travel; in the here and now. Thus comes my acceptance of my path, step by step; always in the present tense. Yesterday's drawing is one step then, not now. More steps will be taken in the now of today.
"You don't need a weather man to know which way the wind blows..." (Bob Dylan). I am following the wind. This is one more weathervane in my arsenal.
Subterranean Homesick Blues
Adolph Gottlieb's works have always fascinated me. I know why. I am struggling fro self-expressive potency; my images never fully satisfy me. Gottlieb's works use a simple formula, over and over. Gottlieb uses a round, cleanly organized shape in contrast to an explosive, jumbled shape; in addition, his images exude positive-shape intensity against supportive, residual negative space. The positive shapes are rich, the negative space lends them fierce interest. This contrast, of shapes and space, sings a potent, emotional message. I do not make flat shapes. My complex, three-dimensional forms have greater opportunity to sing emotions than do Gottlieb's simple, flat shapes. I will stay my course. Gottlieb's simple formula educates; his formula lends charge to visual imagery; his exude husky, emotional responses. In this regard, I believe I can go further than Gottlieb. Adolf Gottlieb's limited formula has instructed me; simple contrast has great possibilities; obtaining more accurate self-expression is possible!
Returning to the past and coming back again reminds there is no way home. Home is always and never. Only discomfort is available. Time future and time past are irrelevant to time present. Everything I make appears to be on the verge of becoming satisfactory. Satisfaction is impossible. I am compelled to return to action; my quest for fulfillment is endless. I want contentment; I want to make real the idea of who I am. Failure is the only option. Gratification is a carrot; I run but never obtain.
The works I show you today are steps in the right direction. My direction is clear. The endpoint, the goal, the destination, will never be obtained. Appeasement does not work either. Ask Winston Churchill not Neville Chamberlain.
I feel I am getting closer to the central theme of my own vision, my own true voice. This drawing feels like a true step, one in the right direction. Time will tell if this is truth or delusion.
Yesterday, after several days of being swept away by preparation of my Pecha Kucha for the 70th A-ONE Silvermine Gallery Exhibition, I was active in the studio. I show you yesterday's drawing without comment.
The Pecha Kucha is done (I will link you to when Silvermine Gallery makes the Pecha Kucha live and linkable). For the Pecha Kucha I took a photo of my studio on 8/23/2020 (see it below).
Finding and seeking is the game that is art making. I have been concerned with making a Pecha Kucha for the 70th A-ONE Silvermine Gallery Exhibit. I will continue to make drawings inbetween that effort. Again, this Pecha Kucha will be 20 slides of my life/work leading to the painting "Amidst a Falling World." Each of the 20 slides will have a 20 second voiceover that is me doing an explanation of each slide.
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