I was working on this drawing when my brother called. I do not consider this drawing finished. Its essence has been established; it requires another look, reflection, then alteration. Perhaps then satisfaction will occur. Come back tomorrow to see this drawing's final state.
It ran away and I caught up with it. This process, the one I choose to engage, is an amazing, meditative, engrossing, fully capturing process. I am not the bold conqueror, imposing my will on the indigenous populace. My art appears mark by mark; I give into its desire to become whatever its wills to be. This one, yesterday's, is rather complicated. It took 12,638,947 marks of mine to become itself... psssst — just kidding — I did not count, but it felt like these marks just kept on being demanded; I completed each request until satisfaction occurred — not my choice).
I have been reading a lot of poetry. Its complexity gives me great solace. I fear my art is difficult. It is not quick. It is not easy to fully comprehend. The viewer must pay attention. Mostly I fear it does not engage the viewer as quickly as (for instance) a work by Keith Haring. A viewer of my works is invited to give into contemplation. Engagement by one of Keith Haring's artworks is quick. My art reveals itself slowly. Profundity is its message; thus it insists upon the viewer slowing down, taking his or her time to see it all. Engagement might begin quickly, but full comprehension takes a lot of time. Reading the poetry of Wallace Stevens has been extremely helpful to me. It encourages complexity. Wallace Stevens constantly reminds me that comprehension of life and living is a slow process. His poetry hits a sweet spot of mine. It makes satisfying sense. It simply feels right. That rightness sings back at me. It is hitting the correct notes. The satisfaction of hitting those notes correctly is profoundly fulfilling. It satiates and quenches my thirst. I am doing that now, over and over, in my art-making. I want this to continue for a very long time. Satiation, like quenching one's thirst, is temporary. I need more of it!
Yesterday's drawings are tests. They are me philosophizing, stepping back and thinking, asking where should I be in this art-making crowded by choices. Simplicity is nice, comfortable, but not long lasting. I vote No.1 as best for me. Best for me because it satisfies me most. It keeps me engaged in more than a moment. It is a series of moments in visual form.
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