New is old and old is new; tis true because invention is reinvention cuz all that is has been before.
It took me several days of revisits to complete this drawing, which looks new to me, but, of course, it is not. Its quality is high; that's helps make it new, better. I find the definitive back-wall very interesting. That back-wall is a solid place to begin the origin of this drawing's movement. This quality infests me with surprise. I like this drawing.
This is it. "Find a Man" is complete. This painting has yet to be recognized as a masterpiece. It is me against the world of critical viewers. Who can see "Find a Man" for what it is? I know this is a very good painting. Take a look. Make your own judgment. I know mine to be true.
I have nothing relevant to say compared to the gravity of the drawing that is in front of you. Of course, you see the reproduction; the actual drawing is more glorious. There is an expanse within me that is my present self-awareness; this profound self-awareness is allowing me to increase my self-perception of the art I make as I make it. My perception is my gaze upon the exterior-to-me world in which my art resides. Thus the realm in which my art is perceived in much enhanced compared to that I have perceived before now. The testimony to this increase in perception is the art itself.
Sometimes getting to Now takes a long time. The painting 2017 No.14 has been my constant companion for nearly two months. Now, at last, I understand her. She is beginning to light up because I recognize her best qualities. She is demandingly Here. After working, re-working, revision after revision, she seems to be saying, "Yes, this is me!" I am celebrating, as is she.
The better qualities of 2017 No.14 are influencing my drawing.
Today is proof positive that you have to see it to believe it! Reproducing art adequately is impossible. Yes, you get the gist, but you don't get the true experience. You don't get accuracy. This is clearly seen in the reproduction of the painting 2017 No.13. The pink tones across the top never go as red as seen here. It is a large painting, thus difficult to light evenly. I am trying to get it more accurate. Yesterday I ordered a few more lights in the Kelvin temperature daylight range. They will arrive tomorrow. Perhaps my next try at reproducing it will be better. As I proceed on a painting the precision in its reproduction does not seem to impact its factuality as much as it does in the painting's early stages. That could be self-delusion.
As to the art work itself, it is going, and going well! This stuff is high quality!
Returning to investigation means mucking around for reminders. Consistency of work has its merits. Its detraction is confusion through familiarity. Returning brings fogginess to the familiar, but a superior quality to introspection. Excellent investigation requires time away. I have been told by writers that stopping, putting away the pages, then returning to look with a fresh mind, is effective in rooting out poorer description and phrasing. Here too! Yesterday's two drawings are vastly different in approach and in image. Both have qualities I like. Seeking truth is not quick and easy. This is going to take a lot of time. Hang in here.
It keeps happening to me. I wake up in a quandary, feeling unease. Then I have my coffee. I prepare the image for the day's blog. I get surprised by the high quality of today's images to be shared with you. I wake-up, I ready to go. After posting the blog I walk to the studio. Immediately reluctant, introspection and introversion hit me. I sit in the studio, look at the work, wonder a little, get up, then begin the day's work. This will happen again today. Today, however, I have the painting 2017 No.10 to finish. I know it is done. It simply needs to be spruced for exhibition. Yay! I just wrote myself through it. Now I know where I am going.
The only way I am going to achieve extreme quality is by delivering an extreme number of renditions.
I cannot satisfy myself. There is no way I can be content with any one image. Everything I make calls another question. Better, yes; final, no. May I live a long life! This said, I do like the work I produced yesterday. I am finding new ways to animate the canvas and paper. 2017 No.9 is calling for artifice of space, artifice of light, artifice of shadow. It is in light and shadow that this painting most interests me. The object in the foreground is a form requiring low contrast because I perceive it in shadow. The background is fully lit, begging for more light in a high value light source.
The deed is done, we have a new car. I am going back to my self-centered approach to making art. The world is my oyster. Time is mine. This little ditty of a drawing I offer today is from the 31st of August, during my auto-distractive period. More and more and more to come...
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