I was back in the studio for an hour yesterday. I am not going anywhere until November. Things have changed. Upon my return I am more lucid. What I am doing feels obvious and indisputable. As with all nature, there is no denying it. It will manifest itself.
Maybe you guessed. I have been doing a lot of traveling, physically (which is easy) and intellectually/emotionally (which is hard). Today I am on the shores of Lake Willoughby, Vermont (see photos at end of today's post). Lake Willoughby is beautiful and serene. I am uncomfortable with my lack of self-expression, yet happy with who I am and where I am.
The drawing I show today were made on August 17.
The second photo of Lake Willoughby is the view looking south from our dock.
I am grooving into a manner of activity which is better described by observation of actions rather than the verbal description of its mechanism. Hang in here and watch. Over the next several weeks my work will undergo a grand transformation, interrupted as it shall be by next week's true vacation of four days: Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, August 20 through 23.
I do not usually do this, but today I show a drawing made today, completed just minutes ago. Two reasons for this: (1) I have nothing to show from yesterday, and (2) I want to keep in touch with my most recent comprehension of this activity called art-making. Art-making is doubting the validity of all previous knowledge. New knowledge does not simply replace old knowledge. The authenticity of the knowledge base is fluid. The discovery of one's reality through the invention of visual images does double time. It throws out and replaces old knowledge with new knowledge while it firms up and acknowledges the truth in much of what one already knows.
The only way I am going to make sense of myself is to stretch and push and pull. To make better sense of this, for you and I, we must watch me probe, then see me react and probe again, day by day. There is no easier way to do this. I know so little and and this journey is to learn more. This is a visual business of learning, so growth in knowledge requires probing in a visual manner. Today's two drawings are part of this process.
I returned to Lyme when I said I would, but did not return to the studio until yesterday. Being away for a couple of weeks does not make for an easy return. I feel uneasy about a lot of things, but definitely about my art. As is my custom, I visited art museums during my journey. I saw art works which deeply affected me. As I looked I got hit with the truth. There is much to change in my manner of approach. When seeing works of great truth I realize I am not making the art I need to make in order to express my personal knowledge of existence. I have much work to do. The challenge is apparent.
Then gone again... I will be away from the studio for four days next week. I am tired of being away from the studio. I do not need a vacation now, but one had been planned on Vermont's Lake Willoughby. Thankfully those four days away will be my last days out of the studio until November, when I am slated to visit Chicago.
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