 "Camouflage" (2022 No.6, state 11), oil on canvas, 41¼x58½ inches  Drawing 07·09·2022, pencil on paper, 16x20 inches Names change, I change, my artwork changes. It is all the same. I, me, mine! The painting, prior title "Arena", has become "Camouflage". Yesterday's drawing is more complex than some of may recent drawings. I am testing limits. Dense black light to forms in sunny light, in the painting, Camouflage". In the drawing I inquire about holding viewer attention despite many complex forms; forms are held together by rhythm, negative space, and spatial play. At this moment, I believe I have the wherewithal to make these questions become answers.
 Drawing 12·22·2021, pencil on paper, 16x20 inches  Drawing 12·23·2021 No.1, pencil on paper, 20x16 inches  Drawing 12·23·2021 No.2, pencil on paper, 16x20 inches Finally, here come some excellent drawings. Even I can accept these drawing as ones of quality. Too much fun is never enough. Worse is living in the aftermath of too much work not enough play. Otherwise. I am devoid of comment.
 "Measure Anew" (2021 No.9, state 02), oil on canvas, 54½x54⅛ inches, {"I had become a new person; and those who knew the old person laughed at me. The only man who behaved sensibly was my tailor: he took my measure anew every time he saw me, whilst all the rest went in with their old measurements and expected them to fit me." -George Bernard Shaw (1856-1950), "Man and Superman" (1903)} All that is new is old. Old can be renewed. I am becoming myself. This new painting. "Measure Anew", is a significant milestone on my journey of at least 36865 days. Nowhere near the end I am. Renewed is my sense of play. For years I go without play. Instead I search in quandary and pain. Then, suddenly, I awake. I find my true path again. This is me now.
 "The Doctrine of Liberty" (2019 No.1, state 4), oil on canvas, 66x59.5 inches {"I believe there is a golden thread which alone gives meaning to the political history of the West, from Marathon to Alamein, from Solon to Winston Churchill and after. This I chose to call the doctrine of liberty under the law." -Anthony Sampson, "The Changing Anatomy of Britain", 1982} Play within a play — that is the way of all the earth. It is the way of my newest painting as well. It is art mimicking reality by being reality within reality. The problem for me is this: I want my paintings to reflect the messiness that is living while also reflecting the human effort to organize in order to defeat the messiness. "The Doctrine of Liberty" is showing signs of being the closest I have come to achieving this goal. It ain't over yet! This is a lofty goal. To achieve messiness within organization I must sustain control all the way thru, till the end of this painting's making.
 "2017 No.11" (state 10), oil on canvas, 50x57 inches So, so close to completeness is the painting 2017 No.11. The large spherical form bothers me... not quite correct. Otherwise, I'm good! This painting has a lot of play in it. I am very comfortable with playfulness, so much so that I crave it. This painting's depiction of play means I am turning a major corner in life and art, from serious, pedantic investigation to an explosion of playfulness. The dictionary defines playfulness as this: "the quality of being light-hearted or full of fun." Dictionary examples of usage include, "images of childlike innocence and playfulness" and "his work displays a playfulness and sense of humor." This reminds me of Pablo Picasso's famous quote, "It took me four years to paint like Raphael, but a lifetime to paint like a child."
 Drawing-02·27·2016, pencil on paper, 16X20 inches Sometimes I see my work as nothing new, nothing different, and stuck within the framework of historical standards in place 50 years ago. This is me at my most fearful. Yesterday's drawing brought this up. Competent, but unlike the work currently getting high notice by reviewers of Art in America and The New Yorker. Could be I need to change. Could be I am not open enough to my own instincts. Could be I am early on a road to personal definition. Could be I am right and the rest of the world needs to catch on.
Outside of my fears, let me tell you the way I see yesterday's drawing. I played with forms that are well known to all. I bent them till they filled the page with animation, big to little, normal to abnormal, light to dark, round to sharp, repetition of the similar versus contrast of the dissimilar. I enjoyed the labored process of seeking and finding. It was iterative: mark, erase, mark, erase, mark, et cetera. The problem was eventually solved. However, the final product does not grab the viewer with enough surprise as to engage on the deepest levels of emotion and intellect. Obviously, I need to think about my process and its outcomes. I want to engage my contemporaries. I want them to jump in, to partake in a conversation. First comes the engagement. Communication will follow. I need to work on this.   On Friday (January 29), my ART Business Day, I worked hard on a new set of Business Cards and Art Portfolio Post Cards. It was a 12 hour work day. The next day I had no creative energy (Saturday, January 30), so... I took a day of reading and watching TV-Series. Yesterday I did get into the studio. Like many days when I return to the studio after time away, I felt a bit foggy about direction. The result is a couple of playfully instructive drawings. I like them very much. It had been a while since I intensely foreshortened a figure. It has been a while since I had taken two characters and aggressively contrasted them in size and scale. Fun. I am still a bit tired. I am going to take tomorrow as a "Rest and Recreation Day". Today is my Money Monday. My next post will be Thursday, February 4.
Untitled Triptych-08·13·2014 (state 17), oil on canvas, 50 X 136 inches (side panels: 50 X 38 inches, center panel 50 X 60 inches)
The colors in Untitled Triptych-08·13·2014 are deeper than those seen in the actual painting. This is my effort to allow you to see the new shadows occurring behind the man in the left panel. It is obvious to me that the left and right panels demand immediately attention and alterations. Today is annoyingly my business day, so the required changes will have to wait until tomorrow. Yesterday's drawing is interesting is its succinct forms, light, and spatial dialogue. I rather enjoyed making it. I regret a bit that it took up three-quarters of yesterday's studio time to produce because the painting Untitled Triptych-08·13·2014 is calling for me to push it toward finality. This said, yesterday's drawing was actually a necessary study for the man in the left panel of the painting. In the drawing I play with a man against a wall. This prepared me for the play of shadows cast by the man in the left panel of the painting. 
Untitled Drawing-09·28·2014, pencil on paper, 16X20 inches
Untitled Triptych-08·13·2014 (state 7), oil on canvas, 50 X 136 inches (side panels: 50 X 38 inches, center panel 50 X 60 inches)
The question which keeps bugging me is, "Why don't I know more quickly?" This process is slow, full of testing and failures. The woman in the right panel of Untitled Triptych-08·13·2014 is getting closer to appearing well enough to accept, but she ain't there yet! The look on her head is better. I believe her head is too large. At this point the woman's head in the right panel does not play effectively with the man's head in the left panel. The size of her head places her in a world apart, so her head must diminish in order to bring her back into the overall composition. Yesterday's drawing was approached differently than usual. I let it fall on the paper, rather than forced it upon the paper. In other words, I did not begin with an idea. I made stroke after stroke, seeking forms which made sense within the developing composition. I carefully watched the developing forms for impact and quality. This method brought me back to the days when I made abstract three dimensional compositions. It made me think, that possibly, I am more about the abstract power of a picture than the figurative power. This will continue to be tested. The range of my work has been restricted by my dedication to the figure. I am uncomfortable with restrictions. 
Untitled Drawing-09·11·2014, pencil on paper, 16X20 inches
 Untitled Triptych-08·13·2014 (state 5), oil on canvas, 50 X 136 inches (side panels: 50 X 38 inches, center panel 50 X 60 inches) I thought of several choices to title today's post, which included, "Don't shoot the messenger", and "Real work has returned". All these titles are appropriate, and concise. Unlike the previous two posts, I want to say something about process! Soon after reproducing the previous version of Untitled Triptych-08·13·2014, I began to dislike the right panel. (BTW: I now give you two ways to observe my blog's reproductions: in its given small format, and in a larger format when selected with a click.) Yesterday I did much to dismantle the right panel's problems, but did not solve it. I played with incongruent sizes. The overall result continues to be disturbing. However, the angle of her head, and "X" of her body, are more satisfactory. Today I'll shrink her head, and will try to angle it correctly, hopefully making it collaborate better, and conspire, with the man in the left panel. This will cause the man in the left panel to react. Let the games begin! I do like the few changes I made to the central panel (the man's head, and the blue vase and its table). Yesterday's drawing is interesting, albeit a basic rehash of known ideas. The drawing is more practice than inspired revelation.  Untitled Drawing-09·09·2014, pencil on paper, 16X20 inches |
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