"Amidst a Falling World" is complete. There are multiple emotions involved in completion. It is death and life and learning and despair (over not knowing enough); it is an end and a beginning. It is informative, but sadly never as wonderful as I wish. Immediately upon completion my desire to begin anew is great. Everything fails a little, as well as succeeds a little. It is within the perception of failure that the next work begins.
This is the researcher taking his time, questioning his questions, not believing any previous answers are true. I am looking to find the potential energy well that reveals true answers. I am looking for true knowledge. I hope it reveals itself as rain does water. Raindrops settle comfortably into depressions, pooling, revealing themselves as a puddle. That is cognizance! Nice, but no comfort. Artistic research is not exactly like scientific research. Science can prove theories. Art proves nothing. Einstein's theory that light's path is bent by gravity was proved. Scientists watched it happen. A star's pinpoint of light bent around our sun as it came to us here on earth. This was gratifying to Einstein. An artist never has proof of his validity. However, there is similarity between a scientist's accomplishment and those of an artist. Like an artist, Einstein did not get great comfort from his accomplishment. It led him to more questions, questions he was never able to answer. Einstein died in despair because he could not find a Grand Unified Theory. This was not unlike Michelangelo, who died lamenting his failures. Michelangelo's last words were these: "I regret that I have not done enough for the salvation of my soul and that I am dying just as I am beginning to learn the alphabet of my profession."
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