I am on my own road. This is a shoutout to myself: "Follow your own compass!" and, "To thyself be true!" I am abandoning misdirection. Misdirection is mostly using models for direction. These drawings an't nothing but my own. I am choosing simplicity. This is me accepting my own minuscule knowledge. Forget the guy who was edgy. I was looking for revolution; I should have been following what I know. Here, in these drawings, I am working toward my personal summative truth.
This is about me and no one else. Sometimes I forget where I am. I am not in completion with other artists. I am competing with myself. I need to stop the interminable, internal fight with myself. I must relax into self-competition. This means tearing down walls. It means out maneuvering myself to myself. I must Acknowledge my failures, then outthink myself to uncover myself. My intellect is interested in the practical of art of maneuvering though roadblocks, around roadblocks; doing anything is necessary to succeed. In the past I have done this by intelligently reinventing my means of getting the things I wanted; I did by invention and reinvention. This is necessary in order to succeed. I am the roadblock to my own success. In my careers in living I have made decisions to accentuate my self-happiness. This is my most important task. I did manipulate others to get what I wanted in my external careers. I did this as student, as parent, as child, as educator, as scientist, and as artist. Now I focus on myself. I am my own competition.
Yesterday's work did focus on me. I am becoming myself. Yesterday I made two drawings, I also revised a third. I accomplished a ringing that is true to myself. I am excited by my accomplishment. I defeated personal roadblocks. I knocked down self-manufactured boundaries. I accept my need to look internally, not to external models or influencers.
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