I have changed the title of my newest painting. I am following its call. It is a question: "Seriously?". I must place it in quotes because I need to emphasize it is questioning my behavior. Yesterday's drawing is a study for this painting. Right now I feel light of heart; more daring than usual. This painting is certainly surprising me. Yesterday's drawing surprises me too; its solution is unusual. To me, this drawing is astonishingly unexpected.
I wish I knew! Yesterday's drawing, and the painting 2017 No.12, are proceeding with some kind of abstracted, visual references. Why is this surprising? Because, just as I thought I had become a non-representational painter I become an abstract/representational painter. I cannot help but see figures in both images produced yesterday. I have no choice but to proceed!
Easier than usual is seeing yesterday's drawing as study for yesterday's painting. Miracle it is that never two days, never too actions, are the same. Now is now! This is the only way to decipher my veiled constancy of self. Calling this constancy is not absolutely correct. I do believe I am built to last. There is stuff in me that is constant. Origination and inception are not excluded from renewal and self-surprise.
This one is beginning to taste good. The painting 2017 No.9 is closing in on itself. Goodness and wonder are not easy, not casual. I dislike this difficulty. Questions always remain. I may drink wine to insure the strawberries taste good. Perhaps the other way around? I am never satisfied. How can I be sure there is not a better tasting strawberry out there? Doubt is discomfort. Acceptance is necessary. I think acceptance is about to happen. One more session with 2017 No.9 should do it.
Yesterday's drawing is a surprise. I did not see it coming. New forms appear when necessary. This animates me. Makes me go back for more.
Never say never! The images continue to work their way toward their own personal finalities. I am the conduit. I channel ideas that burst from intuition. It is a reactive intuition. Reacting is my primary activity. The first mark calls for a second mark, then a third, et cetera. It is a simple activity. The simplicity brings surprises because I have seen a lot, done a lot, felt a lot, and know a lot. It is all within me. No one instance can know it all! So I plod onward, pulling out, one by one, things deep within me. I react to the internal. I react to the presence in front of me. It happens. It nourishes me. It make me feel alive and well.
The painting, 2017 No.8, is nearing its finality. After seven states I feel I know this painting. It is calling for a few enhancements, then it will be done. Yesterday's drawings did surprise. These images are new. They resemble nothing that I have seen before.
Shocking? Not really! I just like the title I used for today's blog because I have enjoyed the wonderful book of the same name by Art critic Robert Hughes. Making Art "is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you are going to get." (This quote from the film "Forest Gump" is also, obviously, not new.) The NEW is the painting, and the drawing, because every thing I make is new. The painting I began yesterday does surprise me. It feels aggressive in its contrasting use of forms, scaled big to little. At the same time this painting is forcing the three-dimensional artifice of space, of which I am fond.
Yesterday's drawing looks like a mix of things recent: NOT so NEW!
I believe the painting 2017 No.6 has been solved. Is it done? Not quite! The lower left portion of the patterned area exhibits a more bluish tone that is out of sync with its upper right portion. Not a big deal! Easy to fix! I think the dirty blue of this area is apt, works well. The entire patterned area will take on the dirty blue, which means the lower left portion will change. Then this painting will be complete. Oh, this painting took on staccato, not vibrato, since its last version. In my last post I predicted vibrato was coming. Proves I do not know what's coming in my own work. Glory, glory!
Yesterday's drawings are more simple, more direct, than others of recent memory; No comment.
2017 No.6 is NOT quite there. There being the place that makes it completely satisfactory. Mostly I need to work on the pattern in the carpet-like form that sits on the painting's ground. The composition is firm. The work remaining is important, not mechanical but definitely laborious, and a bit boring, This thought, that it will be labor, is pronounced because of my need to move on to a new painting. Beginning a painting is so much more exciting than finishing a painting.
Yesterday's drawings surprise me. They look unusual. They tell me that exciting innovations are coming!
What are these drawings? Not snakes! References to snakes? No and yes. Surprises come in many packages, many guises, are unrelenting. I am serching for relavance from here to there to nowhere.
I am startled by my productivity. I do not know if the paintings are good, but I do know they demand to be made. So here I go: one yesterday, there will be another today.
The drawings are experiments. I am trying to figure this out. "This" is that which makes sense to me. It is amazing, after all my many paintings I continue to feel like a neophyte on the edge of self-discovery.
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