I know I do not know as much as I want to know. This does not make me uncomfortable. This painting is about me seeking truth by enjoying the calisthenics of my instincts. I trust. I have fun because my abilities have withstood the test of making many works of art. I am like Usain Bolt at the top of his abilities, or Tom Brady at the top of his.
No delusion; this is my hope. These two drawings are manifest my entire live in searching of the stuff I know to be true, true to me. The drawing at the top resembles a painting I did when studied with Philip Guston; I have come a long way since then. These drawings accept my natural impulse, my nature of seeing. Acknowledgement means a big step because I added my personal record of effort and learning to natural impulse; technical learning allows me to make substantial stuff my younger self could only imagine.
There is a core solidity to this drawing. This solidness is happening to all my work. It is happening now, in everything I do. It feels masterful. Have I arrived at a higher level? That does not matter, because my work is simple. I work to become more mindful. My one clear idea, my true knowing is this: As I make I am able to distinguish correct from delusion. My process is finding truth through recognition. This I believe: More true than false adds up to masterful work.
Complex versus simple; expression is in the eye of the beholder. I must remember this: The artist is not required to spell out every nuance of every feeling. The artist is required to be simple, pure, accepting of the viewer's profound understanding of life, living, and feeling. In other words, the artist is not required to spell out every nuance of every feeling. No more descriptive quality is necessary If the artist feels, then produces an image that is that feeling. The viewer, through his or her feeling, will complete that which must be felt.
Fluidity means moving with supreme grace and skill. I have taken another step in that direction, toward command of my talent and skill. I am referring to painting. Yesterday I approached my painting as I approach my drawing, without fear of stroke and mark because I know I can follow each of them, one after another, until I get them right. This seems like a simple concept, but it is far more complex than I had known before. Because, I have to know where to go if I am to go toward "rightness". My trust in my knowing has jumped. It takes knowledge, and trust in knowledge, to find visual truth on paper or canvas.
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