I feel good. I am going somewhere true. Will that place be one of total success? No way! I go a direction, but every direction has its imperfections. I do that which I must. Yesterday's work, show here (as always), speaks volumes. The volumes it speaks is not only in form and depth (Art Principle stuff), but it exhibits my work not as an ethic, but as a desire to be felicitously moving along.
My life is changing. I am rejecting assiduous, go-at-it-even-if-I-am-tired, relentless push, push. I am accepting do-it-till-I-am-used-up-for-the-day. "Used-up" means acknowledging “when” there is little joy, and also knowing “when” there is little creative insight left in me to give my work. These drawings, and the painting I showed you yesterday ("Ghost Town"), are products of my acknowledging that "when." I am happier. My work is better.
By separation I mean I am allowing myself to dissolve my attachment to all things that came before. I am here, I am now, I am committed to enjoy playing in this space and time. Thus comes this newest painting, "Ghost Town". I just realized, the title of this painting makes sense given my launch away from my past. I am trying to leave my ghosts behind. I am trying to allow myself to make stuff now based upon now.
I know I do not know as much as I want to know. This does not make me uncomfortable. This painting is about me seeking truth by enjoying the calisthenics of my instincts. I trust. I have fun because my abilities have withstood the test of making many works of art. I am like Usain Bolt at the top of his abilities, or Tom Brady at the top of his.
This drawing is cropped from its original dimensions. The crop makes the bottom left sphere-like form more potent. Am I making sense? My current state of mind, full of doubt and wondering, is me nervous.
I am poking myself with images not seen before. This is me in search of me.
No comment. I am learning as I go.
"To rake" means to scrape up or collect. Enough said! Look at this new painting, think about me collecting shapes, scraping them from my internal self..
My world today often encounters confusion in accomplishing tasks previously simple and easy. If a task involves working with another person, the guarantee that it will be smoothly accomplished is murky. Simple tasks become complicated and risky. I find solace in drawing. I can do. I can make something real. I am able to complete something all by myself. This drawing bears witness that my personal tasks can be accomplished well.
Evolution occurring in a new painting. There was also a small tweak to "Camouflage" (2022 No.6). That was yesterday. Also I began a new drawing (come back tomorrow to its completed state).
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