There is only one way to travel; in the here and now. Thus comes my acceptance of my path, step by step; always in the present tense. Yesterday's drawing is one step then, not now. More steps will be taken in the now of today.
It is fleeting, this feeling that I know what I am doing. Safety is not an option. Discomfort is all there is. I hope this is temporary nervousness. Can I blame it on Covid-19 and our dystopian politics? I think not. This is me. This is my struggle to express fully and adequately. Discomfort instigates the next step. Yesterday's second drawing feels better than the first. The first came stiffly; as if I knew the investigation I wanted to make. The second flew, created like watching a mystery unravel. It came mindfully, me watching carefully, yet the task spilled out with robust tenacity of purpose, full of courage, accompanied by audacity. I believe the higher quality of the second drawing is obvious.
"You don't need a weather man to know which way the wind blows..." (Bob Dylan). I am following the wind. This is one more weathervane in my arsenal.
Subterranean Homesick Blues
Drawing No.1: too complicated? Drawing No.2: too simple? Yes, no, maybe? Each is a step along the way, doubling as art, science, research, judgements, and questions; each remain a step, not a destination.
Adolph Gottlieb has instructed me; simple contrast can create complex, emotional images. Yesterday's drawing was one experiment in that direction.
Adolph Gottlieb's works have always fascinated me. I know why. I am struggling fro self-expressive potency; my images never fully satisfy me. Gottlieb's works use a simple formula, over and over. Gottlieb uses a round, cleanly organized shape in contrast to an explosive, jumbled shape; in addition, his images exude positive-shape intensity against supportive, residual negative space. The positive shapes are rich, the negative space lends them fierce interest. This contrast, of shapes and space, sings a potent, emotional message. I do not make flat shapes. My complex, three-dimensional forms have greater opportunity to sing emotions than do Gottlieb's simple, flat shapes. I will stay my course. Gottlieb's simple formula educates; his formula lends charge to visual imagery; his exude husky, emotional responses. In this regard, I believe I can go further than Gottlieb. Adolf Gottlieb's limited formula has instructed me; simple contrast has great possibilities; obtaining more accurate self-expression is possible!
Returning to the past and coming back again reminds there is no way home. Home is always and never. Only discomfort is available. Time future and time past are irrelevant to time present. Everything I make appears to be on the verge of becoming satisfactory. Satisfaction is impossible. I am compelled to return to action; my quest for fulfillment is endless. I want contentment; I want to make real the idea of who I am. Failure is the only option. Gratification is a carrot; I run but never obtain.
The works I show you today are steps in the right direction. My direction is clear. The endpoint, the goal, the destination, will never be obtained. Appeasement does not work either. Ask Winston Churchill not Neville Chamberlain.
I feel I am getting closer to the central theme of my own vision, my own true voice. This drawing feels like a true step, one in the right direction. Time will tell if this is truth or delusion.
Yesterday, after several days of being swept away by preparation of my Pecha Kucha for the 70th A-ONE Silvermine Gallery Exhibition, I was active in the studio. I show you yesterday's drawing without comment.
The Pecha Kucha is done (I will link you to when Silvermine Gallery makes the Pecha Kucha live and linkable). For the Pecha Kucha I took a photo of my studio on 8/23/2020 (see it below).
Finding and seeking is the game that is art making. I have been concerned with making a Pecha Kucha for the 70th A-ONE Silvermine Gallery Exhibit. I will continue to make drawings inbetween that effort. Again, this Pecha Kucha will be 20 slides of my life/work leading to the painting "Amidst a Falling World." Each of the 20 slides will have a 20 second voiceover that is me doing an explanation of each slide.
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