I am not going to write a lot today because I feel charged and ready to get back in the studio. Two days ago I was overwhelmed by the snow and my being forced to deal with it (driving, shoveling, etc). It was not a fun day. Yesterday I did get into the studio, but almost fell asleep in my drawing chair, so tired was I from the previous day. I also spent some time organizing a "Facebook" page.
Here is where I am today: I am obsessed with self-potraiture. Yesterday's first drawing was made in front of a mirror (very unusual). I will continue my obsession and paint on the 32 X 38 inch canvas I prepared with a burnt umber ground. Yesterday's self-portrait drawing annoys me with its realism, which is not all that real. I am not trying to make a physical likeness as much as an emotional likeness. I have been failing because I have been taking too much from my visual reality. Consequently, I like yesterday's second drawing more than the first. This goes to the heart of my struggle. I am trying to find a way to make art which discovers and expresses simultaneously. I cannot achieve this goal if I rely too much on my present visual experience. I looked at my work over the last several months while preparing my "Facebook" page; I am happy with only a little of it. The drawings do not have the compositional force I desire. I know this statement is vague, but I am the one who must deal with it, so clarification will come only through work. All I can say is, "Stayed tuned!"
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