I remember one phrase from a lecture I attended (20 years ago) on how to reduce stress in the work place: "As people grow older they become more like themselves." The lecturer explained that people eventually give up their guard, grow weary of their desire to be liked and loved, and accept their impulses, stripped of reticence built on their youthful desire to be virtuous. This is scary if you know someone whose demeanor is difficult to take when he or she is 30 years of age, because his or her behavior will be an experience of hell at 60 years of age. I have found this to be true.
The drawings I made yesterday took me another step closer toward becoming myself. A higher level of sensitivity to deep emotions is exhibited in them, not just in the physiognomies of the individual figures, but also in the touch of the pencil and consequent production of form (both individual elements and larger structures)—in the drawing shown first, look at the lips of the woman! I show you yesterday's two drawings in reverse order, because I believe the second to be most excellent and wish you to react to it first.
When I was younger I examined all kinds of methods and manners of art making. I did not know who I was or what I wanted to be. I copied other artists, and wished to be "like them." So aging, and working, go hand in hand; I am becoming "more like myself" because I have lived and labored. The years of daily work is being rewarded with self‐knowledge. My optimism, and excitement, about making my art is increasing.
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