Yes, there are major changes occurring within me, and I am making a great effort to find a means to visually exhibit my questions and answers. Some of the stuff I valued is leaving me. I am seeing the transformation of my interests. I have always been fascinated by art as exhibition of introspection; introspection of why and how art is made, and introspection of why and how we exist. This has given way to my making pictures, which have ranged from abstractly observing the process of art-making, to creation of a visual mythology (for a quick look at my painting history go to my Biography in Pictures).
My first great influences were Cezanne, van Gogh, and Gorky. Not because what they painted, but because their paintings left technical tracks of their searching for visual truth. In this art-blog I have shown paintings by Cezanne and van Gogh, but I do not think I have shown a painting by Arshille Gorky. His work is instructive to me, then and now. Below this paragraph I show Gorky's painting "Milkweed." This painting is about seeking and finding, both occurred simultaneously, as the painting was constructed. To make a painting like "Milkweed" one must immerse oneself in the process of making art, and leave behind the need to consciously hold onto to concrete visual memories, though a painting like this is fraught with, and informed by, visual memories.
The other extreme, which now appears to me to be an aside, was my search for existential meaning through inventive personal mythology. In this regard, my teacher, Philip Guston, was most influential (Guston's painting "As it Goes," from1978—when I was studying with him, appears below this paragraph). If you wish to see one of my "personal mythology" paintings, and a discussion of my art at that time in my life, go to this Sharon Arts Gallery "Press Release."
This brings me back to the present. As of today, my search for meaning by invention of representational mythology, does not seem important. I just want to move my hand and discover as I make art. I am beginning to believe the consequence of simultaneously being and acting is enough. This activity informs and expresses. From here, this seems like all I need. I state this with no great affirmative security. I am questioning through my work, in hopes of finding security. The two drawings I made yesterday exhibit this approach, an approach less interested in definitive compositions, and more interested in finding while marking the page. Here they are...
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