In the March 18, 2013 issue of the The New Yorker magazine Peter Schjeldahl begins his review of the artist Jay DeFeo's retrospective exhibit (now at the Whitney Museum in New York City) with these words: "Most artists fail in what they try to do. The reasons range from an encyclopedia of faults and mistakes to the myriad variants of bad luck."
I worry about failure ALL THE TIME! I worry because I hear physicist Richard Feynman's words forever echoing in my brain: "The first principle is that you must not fool yourself—and you are the easiest person to fool." I know my work has far to go before it is the expressive dynamo I wish it to be, but I worry, "Is the track I am taking true and honest, without foolery?" Only time will tell. I am trying to stay true to myself, but often I step back and wish I was further along in my ways, wishing my art was as full of me as I know I am. There continues to be a reluctance to burst into a realm of just me and my art—I can see and feel it. But the path I am on also feels necessary. I have to do the ground work to move up the learning curve without doubt. I just hope I am not fooling myself.
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