No dilemma. Just a lot to do. Remember the painting "Two Men"? I will return to it today. There are several other paintings out there in the same state, i.e. mostly solved, but incomplete. All of them need their details enhanced and finished off. You saw me do this push to completion with "Window." Thinking about "Window" upsets me. I will never stop complaining about reproduction. I hurt every time I look at the reproduction of "Window" posted on 06/16/2011. Its details, and color, are harsher in reproduction than in reality. This makes me doubt that I completed it satisfactorily. I do not have the actual painting to compare to the reproduction. I am looking forward to seeing the actual painting again, with hopes its reproduction is incorrect, and that "Window" is better in its details, and color, than the reproduction posted here. I want to be pleasantly surprised by reality. After I see the genuine "Window" I will let you know the outcome of my worries.
I believe drawing #1 from yesterday is important. I very much enjoy the man's left shoulder in its fullness of form. Also the distortion of its details, the invention in its forms, cause me to feel good and right. There is a "knowing" in these details. The enormous amount of drawing I have done over the last year is clarifying my basic need to create human figures which expressively emote through distortion of their body and physiognomy. This "knowing" is calling me to begin a new painting. The reason I have chosen to return to "Two Men" is due to its proximity to this knowledge. Although the forms in "Two Men" are not greatly distorted, the forms do express and emote through body language and physiognomy. It is the man's head on the right which bothers me most, as it is not in sync with the rest of the painting and the depth of expression I now know I can handle. Today I will paint out this man's head and look for truth which jives with the rest of the painting's expressive reality. Yesterday's drawing #1 has given me the faith required to wipe out and find anew.
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