When I was a younger man a doctor said to me, the nervous young man, "Things happen. There is always going to be something to be nervous about." This wisdom, from Dr. Pepperkorn, continues to echo in my head. I regret my distractions. I wish for more time in order to process more. I want to solve all my problems. I dwell upon things good and bad. It is the bad that feeds my constant discomfort. I do not regret being a problem solver for things solvable. Many bad things cannot be made different. I do not like missing pieces. I want everything to be fully understood, to be fully correctable. I want the puzzle to be whole.
Yesterday I was able to make one drawing. Stuff happened before and after. Mistakes were made. Time got sliced and diced. I tried to solve my mistakes. I regret the mistakes. Now they are in the past. I cannot make them right. All I have to show is one drawing made between the mistakes and the lost time. To be honest, some of the lost time was spent in me problem-solving good things. Thus there is something here to show for my time disappeared. It is the drawing I show you now. It is a good drawing. It is good because its sits well on the eye, it speaks truth and asks interesting questions. This drawing informs me. Such is a definition of time well used, i.e. time spent on creating information worth knowing is not time lost.
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