I can's stop myself from using these economic analogies. Our nation is on pins and needles. I'm always on pins and needles. Congress is trying to pass legislation to prevent default on Nation's our debt obligations. I have debt obligations too, but I am speaking in art, not money. Like Congress, I too am trying to find a way to resolve my obligations. Perhaps my recent painting, "Pulling Onions," is related to the confusion inherent in paying down one's obligations. "Pulling Onions" is a dirty job, but someone has to do it. In fact, I like doing it, because I like onions! It is the reward which makes the job worthwhile. For years I have struggled to become more efficient at my job in order to make the effort as rewarding as the end product. That is happening now. I am beginning to find instant gratification in the art I am making. I am finding satisfaction in drawing a fingernail which relates to the expression of the whole. Making art is making small marks while trying to comprehend the effect of that small mark on the whole picture. As I get closer to this global comprehension, while acting in the moment, I also get closer to fulfillment. I won't default because I can't give up. Getting closer to fulfillment is a drug I can not do without. I know this will never end.
Reading between the lines of my philosophical discussion you may discern my satisfaction with yesterday's work. In each case it was a step forward in my comprehesion. Today I will work on the right figure in "Pulling Onions." His form has to be clarified in order to compete with the figure on the left. Yesterday I also found much satisfaction in the manner in which the figure in the first drawing was found. There was a spontaneity in finding it; the figure was not, in any way, preconceived.
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