Today's title relates the discomfort I feel when viewing the painting "Young Man." Some of my discomfort comes from the impossibility of reproducing the subtlety of actual works of art. I do not like what "Young Man" looks like in today's post. In actual viewing it is not as shabby as what you will see here. "Young Man" is far from emotionally resolved. In any case, I will return to write about my discomfort with "Young Man" after I show my two drawings from yesterday. These drawings were also difficult to reproduce (I spent about an hour playing with them using iPhoto and Photoshop). Obviously, more intricately executed works of art are impossible to accurately reproduce.
My process in making the painting "Young Man" is uncomfortable. It speaks to my need to emote with clarity. The traditional feel of this painting overwhelms any emotional message. It is dull and mawkish. So, what am I doing? This is what I am required to unravel today. I do know I am making this painting in questioning my direction and process. Today I will strip away and replace, and work toward finding something more substantially in tune with the direction I must follow. Art making is two steps forward, one back, over and over. My first impulse in making "Young Man" was to go backward, now I must advance.
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