I am always aware of my deficit. I do not know enough. My sum of knowledge is too small to make ends meet. My daily work goes into increasing my knowledge so I may decrease my deficit. This isn't economics. My deficit is infinite, and this impossible to obtain ceiling is a good thing. In fact, the more I know the higher the ceiling becomes; infinity gets further away, more unobtainable. Making art is the struggle to close the gap between what I know and what I make in visual images. Making art begets knowledge, and knowledge increases the size, and my awareness of, my deficit.
Yesterday started with a drawing, which I show below the current state of the painting "Pulling Onions." The drawing is a study for the painting. Discomfort encircles me. I like the look of this painting. I like the approach. However, it does not speak with the volumes of ideas I wish my work to exude. This is my deficit made real.
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