I know you are going to find this astonishing, but I actually believe it is true. Yesterday's drawing has opened a reality that will impact my painting. You will see this first in my most recently begun painting Untitled-11·27·2013. Hopefully I will see it happen today and you will see it in tomorrow's blog post. The word used in the title for today's post, "rip", is appropriate because that's exactly what I did to this canvas when I last altered it (I so enthusiastically scraped off a layer of paint that I ripped a hole in the canvas ― not to worry: I duct taped it closed→hah!). So what's happening? Well it feels this way: Yesterday's drawing came quickly between holiday preparations; as often happens, one's ability to concentrate goes up when time is limited and one is highly aware of the task which must be completed in the limited time that is available. I went right to the core of the problem, and to the solution. The result hit a major chord in me, a chord that sang honestly and true. You may not see it in this drawing (that's the reason I tell you I feel it). Let me make one more stab at clarifying the reason I feel this insight: This is about my basic impulse to make art. I want to organize my deepest confusions, and the incontrovertible notions, of my existence. I have a deep need to illuminate this dichotomy of knowing, so I make art. In yesterday's drawing I found lucidity in its organization. This insight into the expressive richness of organization will now impact my painting. The head of the man in Untitled-11·27·2013 will be scrapped away and replaced. The priority of organization of the picture as translator of my internal queries has, through yesterday's drawing, come to the forefront. I will try NOT to rip another hole in may painting.
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