Below my one drawing from yesterday I show the print The Sleep of Reason Produces Monsters (In Spanish, "El sueño de la razón produce monstruos") from Los Caprichos, a set of 80 aquatint prints created by the Spanish artist Francisco Jose de Goya in 1797 and 1798, and published as an album in 1799. I was reminded of this self-portrait by Goya because of my extreme tiredness yesterday. I could not continue in the studio, and took a long afternoon nap. This is unusual for me, and comes after a few heavy days of intense and absorbing work. This is the part of being human I find bothersome. I often try to defeat it. I desire continuous creativity, but I fail. Unfortunately I require rest between bouts of intense creativity. The problem with this cycle is its disruption of the continuity. Just when I am having success, and feel close to authenticity, I get tired and must rest. The positive part of this (I believe) is the resting produces internalization of recent insights. I do believe the sleep unleashes monsters which I have intuitively encountered in my recent creative period. These monsters move closer to the surface during the rest. The rest gathers the energy I require in order to renew my effort to bring these monsters onto paper and canvas. Yesterday's drawing, though sparse and quick, moves in this direction.
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